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YESTERDAY...

... was my damn birthday. It was rather sad but some parts of yesterday was also happy.

I started my day with an early wake-up call from my alarm clock. I needed to get to school early because my Onii-chan and I had a bet that whoever gets there last will have a punishment. And guess who won? ME! Hehehe... So, when he arrived, I was infront of the lobby waiting for him and when he saw me, I kept jumping up and down as if saying "HAH! I BEAT YOU, YOU LOSER! *iNseRt eviL lauGh*", and he just messed up my hair by ruffling it and left because of his duty as a core commander in our CAT (his punishment is to buy me free lunch twice this week and for him to ask his crush for a dance when our prom/bequethal already here). And then after a few minutes, the flag ceremony started.

After the flag ceremony, we returned to our respective classes, and met our own classmates. It was fun in our class! But there were much more boys than girls. T.T  It was rather annoying since most of them were so noisy, but hell, I was also along with my other classmates who were also my classmates last year. First part of the day ended up so quickly actually. When lunch came, my friends  (Russ, Char, and Zime) and I waited for Onii-chan in the benches infront of our classrooms. During lunch, we ate in the Jurgen's Hall. It was pretty fun! We were talking about random stuff and there was one part in where me and Onii-chan remembered the anime "Sukisyo". He was like "SH**!", because he had watched the half of the first episode and was like, "Is that a guy?!". LoL~

After eating, we went to the second floor of the canteen and stayed there for a while. ^_^

TODAY...

... the only thing that happened that I think was good was when I was able to talk to my friend, Elie, who was my classmate last year (she's Onii-chan's classmate). We talked of anime while reading an issue of Otakuzine Mag (as always) along with Sai and Dolli while I was eating Skyflakes and Iced Tea. After a few minutes, Onii-chan appeared out of nowhere. I thought it was someone else but then when I was about to drink my last bit of Iced Tea, I realized it. And then Elie said, "Hey! Let me borrow the other two that you brought!", so I agreed. Then you'll be laughing at what I did next... Before going back to my classroom to get the 2 other issues, I had Onii-chan hold my empty cup and empty plastic of Skyflakes, and he was surprised. Then I suddenly ordered hime, "You throw it..." and ran back to my classroom... LoL~

              For the past non-school days, all I did was text and talk in the phone. Well, let's just say I played 20 Questions with Onii-chan. It was kinda serious, actually... In my point of view, that is. It was already a carefree days when this morning, some person, namely Onii-chan, texted me and told me that our English teacher was asking me to come to school and help in decorating the AVR (Audio Visual Room) for the Recognition Day. And so, I came cramming, preparing to go to school. While going to school, I asked Onii-chan if he can help since he was going to stay in school because of his older brother, which he agreed to since he doesn't have anything to do.

              At school, the designing didn't pushed through and was moved tomorrow since we couldn't visualize it that much and we still need some other people's help. So, Onii-chan and Me, along with his other friend, just played PSP and surf the net for some stuff. I also helped Onii-chan in his journalism project because his groupmates are all lazy.

              At 4:00, I left school to go home. And here I am, typing this entry while watching TV and playing PSP. And by the way, I won't be updating tomorrow since I know that what had happened today will also happen tomorrow (Yes, I'm going to school tomorrow, too).

              Early this morning, I woke up at exactly 5:26 only to hear that our maid was talking to my mom (overseas) on the phone. After the phone call, I knew that my mom was reminding about me having a picture of tonight's event. Tonight was the "Bequethal Ceremony"; it's just like a JS Prom but it's held in school and just takes 3-4 hours, and will start 5:00pm onwards. But this morning, we needed to go to school for a few reminders.

              Before going to school, Robyn and I had breakfast in 7 Eleven while talking about random stuff. And then while talking, I was texting Onii-chan and then I asked him what time the class starts. That's when we knew that the class starts at 8:00 and it was only 6:55. LoL~ So, we stayed for more like an hour in 7 Eleven, talking while eating. Afterwards, we went to school.

              Upon arriving, I waited for Onii-chan in the Open Laboratory to seach over some stuff in the Internet. When Onii-chan arrived, we left to go to the classroom but left again after a few minutes to go around. And then back again in the classroom. Since there was nothing much to do, Onii-chan played "Final Fantasy VI" in his gameboy and listened with me in my mp3. Around 10:00am, all the third year students were asked to go to the MPH (Multi-purpose Hall). There, we were asked to line in 20 and were led to the covered court. We were shown our respective seats and I was seated beside Elie, She and CJ. Onii-chan was seated at our back along with our classmate, Dan. Then when we were all seated, our adviser,  who is also the batch representative, gave us a few announcements about the bequethal that night and dismissed us. Upon dismissal, CJ, She and I had lunch in Mcdo, Gateway and got home separately.

              When I arrived at home, I didn't really got started to fix myself for the event. Instead, I did different sort of stuff and prepared at around 3:30. I refreshed myself up, wore my dress (a brown dress, with a brown-striped bolero) and had my hair and make-up done by our neighbhor who is a graduate in a course of cosmetics. At 4:45, I left the house using a taxi. When I arrived, I was welcomed by She and Onii-chan in the front gate. She was wearing a pink dress partnered with a pink frill cloth and Onii-chan was wearing a red polo and black pants.

              While waiting for CJ to arrive, we took a few snapshots together but then decided to head to the covered court where the Bequethal was going to be held. When we saw the tables where the food was, we kept on teasing Onii-chan since his polo was the same color as the table cloth. LoL~ It was really funny. After that, we decided to take a seat in our respective ones and tooked a look around some people. We saw Megumi across the court and told Onii-chan but he kept saying that he was busy with his PSP and fight the urge to look. How rude! Damn him!

              A few minutes later, some faculty staff member announced that all third year and fourth year students was to go to the covered court in order to start the bequethal. At 6:00pm, they started it. It was boring! Each person on the stage just kept on talking about stuff I couldn't understand. So, if you were there, you can see that almost all the third years are just texting. Elie and I was listening to anime songs while I was texting. CJ, who was beside Russ and She, were doing the same thing. Onii-chan was listening to his music in his PSP while texting, too. LoL~ It was funny looking at our batch actually. When the ceremony ended to start the eating time and socializing time; Me, Onii-chan, CJ, Russ, Zime, She, Queen, Ronna, and Dan.A., roamed around the campus to have a little pictorial. But, of course, we returned to the covered court.

              When we returned, we ate a few snacks. And then something happened (in my point of view, actually) that made me switch to emo mode. So, I left and stayed in the front gate (which was empty and there were no light open except for the cafe beside). I was supposedly to go with Onii-chan since he was told to do some rounds but because of a little incident, I decided to be alone.

"All alone with this withered tree, sharing the feeling of emptiness and lonliness with it..."

              A few minutes of being alone, Onii-chan came and sat beside me. I think he stopped himself from asking questions that I didn't want to answer. A little while later, 2 of our batchmates; Kyle and Joseph came and started to head to our school's front lawn. I walked barefooted and Kyle, Joseph and Onii-chan made a little pictorial of their own. When Kyle and Joseph left, I decided to take a seat infront of the school chapel, and Onii-chan followed. That's when he asked what was wrong with me. I lied to him saying that I just couldn't breath with my boleron on since it's a bit tight. He told me take it of for a while but of course I didn't saying that I have big shoulders. So, yeah...

 Nearing 8:15pm, Onii-chan decided to go back to the covered to check out the happenings and I was left alone. But no, actually I got back to the court, too, but I just saw something again that made me sad. And so, I left without a word to anyone, not even to my friends nor Onii-chan.

          Exams are finished and I still can't relax. I'm irritated because I don't know what to do here at home. My DVD Player's remote isn't working, and my gadgets are still with my lovable uncle's house, which I don't know when I will get. *siGh* But, nevertheless, this last examination this year was my most memorable one...  ^.^

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... 1st day of "examinations" in school ...

          I came really early for school, while drinking Coca-cola to keep me going, since my Onii-chan's crush, "Megumi", wanted me to review some several topic, especifically Geometry, and also to get a temporary ID since I lost my ID but I didn't get one in a time of 6:10 since the principal's secretary wasn't there yet. So, I returned to the classroom.

* Our test at that day was Filipino, Geometry and World History.

           Upon arriving from the prinicipal's office, Megumi had me teach here some topics in Geometry which she cannot understand along with her bestfriend from the Star Section, Czar. A little while later, Onii-chan came and my, my, my... He looked like he was rape by a million gay guys. I went to him and greeted him. Then, we went both to the principal's office, along with Zime (our classmate) only to see his brother watching over the office since the secretary wasn't there yet.

           I was a little surprised when Onii-chan lied down on the couch. His brother was like: "Hah! That's what you get for sleeping 2:00 in the morning just to review!" And I was like: *jAwdRopPeD* "You slept 2:00 in the morning?! Are you trying to kill yourself?!" and so the chaotic conversation started with that. At that time, he told us that he read chapter 51-64 of the Noli Me Tangere and memorized some things for World History which was the reason that he slept at 2:00 in the morning and which was also the reason why he was currently drinking one Gatorade bottle of coffee. Oh well.. I couldn't blame him. The school dismissed as at 3:30 in the afternoon and then the next day was the exams... *siGh* Not to mention, having Geometry for the first day of exams isn't really funny at all.

           At exactly 6:42, the principal's secretary, Ms. Liz, came and so, we got our temporary IDs just in time for the flag ceremony. When the flag ceremony started, the students were very funny to look at since they kept on glancing at their feet were their reviewers were placed. Some used the tip of their shoes to move the page to the next. And guess what? I was also one of them... So, after the flag ceremony, all students got back to their classrooms and had a 30minutes review time and started the exams.

           First off was World History which wasn't all that bad... for others that is, and not for me. During the examinations, Megumi was right by my left and one of our classmates (who knows how to play drums and is a very funny person), Terrence, was in my right. Both of them was getting answers for the exams from me, and MAN! It was so damn hard! Luckily, our adviser didn't caught us. It was also the same for the other subject examinations. It was hard, VERY HARD! Second came Filipino which was I thought was going to be hard since I didn't review at all and my notes for Noli was stolen. But, stock-memory came in-handy. Last for that day was Geometry and it was still the same situation, except that I didn't got to finish it because of our adviser counting time like: "2 more minutes", "1 minute and 50 seconds" and so on... *siGh*

           And so, after the 1st day of exams, I decided to go home early after I have given the Noli Me Tangere notebooks to Ms. V along with Onii-chan (again). When I got home, I didn't start reviewing. I don't know why but usually, I do review as soon as I got home. But it was kinda weird that I was lazying around and just listening to my mp3, making excuses to watch TV. And so, I started reviewing around 5:00 in the afternoon and slept at around 11:30 in the evening.

... 2nd day of "examinations" in school ...

           Just like the first day, I came early, now drinking and has one bottle of hot 3 packed-coffee, to teach Megumi again. And this time, it was Chemistry. But I didn't really taught her since she borrowed my notebook to complete her requirements. So, since I didn't have anything to do, I reviewed for a while but then I stopped and remembered that again, I need to go to the principal's office to get a temporary ID.

           Later on, after several minutes, many more students came coming and the bell rang, signalling the start of the 2nd day of examinations. First two exams before the break were Journalism and Literature, which I found a bit easy and hard at the same time. Easy because I know some of it. Hard because I didn't really review anything especially on Journalism and not to mention, Megumi and Terrence kept on nagging me to give them answers.

           Oh well... Break time was the most joyful time that day especially since I was on hyper-"kilig" mode. Okay, so, I brought one bottle of coffee to school, remember? During the morning breeze, Megumi asked me to let her drink a cup of coffee which I agreed to. Later on, on the morning too, I accompanied Onii-chan to the principal's office and I had him taste my coffee. It's just that, I know everyside of my cup and how it differs on all sides and angles and where my Onii-chan had drink when I had him taste my coffee is the exact part where Megumi had drank too... Take note! I did drink but it's on a different side and I haven't cleaned my cup yet. So, what does that mean?  ^_^ IDK! which stands for In.direct.kiss..! LoL~ So, I kept teasing him about it... And he was like going to blow up already! It was so fun that I didn't got a chance to review for Chemistry! And then, while he was reviewing, I kept on pointing my fingers upwards on his head which made him look like a "torro", and my classmate, Apple, was laughing at it. When Onii-chan noticed it, he won't stop pestering me with attempted tickling and strangling! *laUghs haRdeR* And so, I kept on annoying him until our adviser came for the last 2 exams. LoL! He didn't got a chance to review...

           So, the last 2 exams were Religion and Chemistry. Religion was pretty easy even though I didn't review or read anything about our lessons at all. As for Chemistry, almost all of us got angry since before the exams, our teacher said there won't be solving problems BUT THERE WAS! T.T My gosh! Luckily, I remembered some, especially the ZAPEN Problem Solving and Balancing. But what I hated was the pH and pOH! Damn it! *caLmS dowN* About 30 minutes before dismissal, our class had a little bonding time. The ones who started it was ME, Terrence, Megumi, Sai (one of my anime fan friends), and Terrence' friend: Joed. We were like cheering some names but it really is an insult. It was fun especially when almost the whole class was joining in already. *lauGhS* There was "Stick-O", "Kulot-Salot" or simply "Kulot", "Gumogda", "isda", "sped", "baboy" and so on... It was really fun! But my hands hurt, you know! With all those clapping beat.... ^.^ And so, dismissal time, everystudent in our school was celebrating and did what they wanted to do...

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          So, yeah... After the exams, all of us had a 2 rest days, specifically Sunday and Monday. It was a bit boring, actually. I got nothing to do here at home. But it was kinda fun since I got to text some stupid classmate (my Onii-chan to be exact) and play 20 questions, tease him about his crush and so on...

             This day can be considered as one of the sadess and weirdest yet happy day of my life...

             SADESS. Remember when I told you yesterday about what I did to my Oniichan? I didn't talk to him all day and everyone else were like ignoring me, too, so I was a loner for the rest of the day. I was all alone; doing my homework, seatwork, quizzes, going to different places in school alone and other more stuff. And I was like angry or "mataray" in tagalog, wherein my classmates were affected by it since I talked to them with an angry tone either when they ask something or when they did something wrong which is none of my business. *siGh* One time, Oniichan tried to talk to me since Elie told him something (which I never got to figure out). But guess what? I ignored him... Why? I was still guilty for what I did to him... the wound... and I'm get teary-eyed whenever I see the wound on his face. *sNiff* But you know what, I really wanted to talk to him at that time but half of me said otherwise.

             WEIRDEST. HAPPY. This dismissal, I got so angry at my classmates for a reason and because of it, I cleaned the whole classroom which was very, very dirty, courtesy of my classmates. After that, I looked for my Filipino teacher, Ms. V to ask her something but it everything ended into a long conversation/"kwentuhan" with matching eating of fishballs, french fries, and red tea. There was time which was really weird...

             (Tagalog Conversation)
Ms. V: Bakit nga pala di mo kasama si Kuya mo kanina?
ME: Eh, kasi may nangyari po eh.
Ms. V: Alam mo, ang bait niya. Buti naging kaibigan mo siya...
ME: Oo, nga po eh..
Ms. V: Bat di ka nga pala nag-CAT?
ME: Wala po akong time eh.
Ms. V: Sayang! Mas okay sana kung kasama mo si Kuya mo. Tsaka okay ka sana maging officer. Si Kuya mo ang commandante tapos ikaw ang second-in-command.
ME: Eh, walang time po kasi eh. Gusto ko rin po sanang maging CAT officer.
  * A few minutes later...
Ms. V: Pero alam mo, di ako magtataka kung maging kayo sa huli. Gawin mo kong ninang ah..
ME: Hala! Wala namang ganyanan, miss...
Ms. V: Ah basta.. Gawin mo kong ninang...

0_0 My Gosh! I was really shock! And even until I got home, I still couldn't absorb what Ms. V told me... Until now, I still couldn't believe that of all teachers, it was Ms. V who said it... OF ALL TEACHERS who are close to me... *siGh* Has the world really gone mad?!

             You see, today was our section's "kapatiran" in where we meddle in the lives of a different class of people. And so, we visited Brgy. Obrero, just near our school, which we can call "urban poor"... All of us had respective partners to be with during the day, along with our foster family...

             My partners were Jaja and Nick...

             It was really fun... When we arrived in the house of the foster family we were assigned at, I was really shock to see their house... It was much bigger than mines! 0_0  And you know, their bathroom was tiled, not to mention it was shining white! *jaW dRopPed* My gosh! Really shocking... And my, their floor - it had a carpet... 0_0  VEeeryy surprising...

             Yet, I didn't mind that... Instead, we had a very fun conversation with the Ducot Family and played with one of their daughters who was 4 years old... Actually, it was only me and Jaja who was playing with her while Nick was busy interrogating the mother 'coz one time, when he tried to play with her; the girl cried... LoL~

             There's nothing really much to tell since because of my fun day, I can't remember them all while typing this. And also, I'm just in Netopia, renting a PC, so I can't stay much longer...

             So, I think.. That's all for now.. See you next entry... ja ne! ^_^

            Wow! Just great.. He's flight was today and I didn't came with my classmates to see him go... Why? It'll hurt, that's why! *siGh*

            But nevertheless, I enjoyed my school day since we didn't really do anything for the day because of our Songfest General Practice... LoL~

            At first, I was really in a bad mood but later on, my classmates' stupidiness and funny personalities brought me back to crazy-hyper mode...

                        Anyways, I'm not really in the mood to type right now since I have many things to do for school.

Ja ne! Soushte oyasuminasai!

Am I tired or what? GOSH! I can't believe this... This week is just to tiresome... *siGh*

Nothing special happened today except from the miracle that happened this morning - "I was early in school and I came in the classrrom just a minute before Mr. Premocoi came in, too..."  LoL~ Not to mention, me and my friend and classmate - Carizza, almost came late for the first subject because we went to the school bookstore.

Amd you know what? After our lunch time which was 12:30, all year level in the high school department gathered in the auditorium for the celebration of our Speechfest '08.

IT WAS BOOOORING! We were remained sitted for almost 4 hours...

Oh well, never mind... Gotta go! Got many school stuffs to do....

CURRENT SITUATION:

             Sometimes, I hate myself already...

             You know, ever since I was a kid, I was already used to being left by everyone even by those persons whom I have considered friends.

             Now, in the present time of my life, I have had many friends. From the same school, from a different school, those older than me, those younger than me, and those who cares for me whenever I'm in need yet I'm not there when they're the ones in need...

I'm so selfish, aren't I?

             Yes, I admit... I'm selfish/self-centered especially when my friends are in the topic... Why? Let's just say that when I like my friends very much - I tend to hold them by the neck. How? I always want to be with them whenever we can be, I always want to know what they're doing, I always want to know who they are with, I always want to know where they are, I always want to know everything about them... I get jealous when they're having fun with their other friends and I just seem to be boring, I get angry a lot of I can't contact them thru phone or cellphone for a week or so - sometimes, 2 days is too much.. Lol~

In short....

             I'm a pathetic burden for my friends!

             Well, not really a burden, but I'm the most annoying friend that you can have, actually... I admit those that I have said, okay? 'Cause all of them are true! At first, I did noticed it but never paid attention to it that much. But, when I have talked to a friend's friend, GOSH! That person really knocked some sense in to me on what I'm doing! It was just one single conversation while buying a damn slip then BOOM! That person's words hit me like stone... *siGh*

             That's why I've decided to let go of my friends from outside of my school 'cause they're the once that I could say whom I hold by the neck. I know that that's what they feel but doesn't tell me because they know how I will react...

I know, I know - I sound stupid! But, it's true...

             But you know, meeting those friends of mine is one of the VERY most important thing that happened in my life. They've helped me change myself even just little by little. They've been there for me whenever I need to punch the hell out of someone, if you know what I meant. Not to mention, whenever I need to leave reality for even just a minute or more, they're there ready to listen or talk to me whenever they have free time from the busy life of a human/student.

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SCHOOL SITUATION:

             So, school was a bit lively and boring at the same time... I was still kinda depressed, you know... No PSP, no mp3 player, no watching of anime, no going out of the house - until my grades improves... *siGh*

             Well, no used to knowing what happened in school since what we did was do a kite in Geometry, discuss some stuff in other subjects, have lessons and stupid seatworks, and practice for the upcoming "Songfest".

             Gotta go now, guys! Still have many things to do - Ja Ne!

             Talk about bad luck...

             Yesterday, I got my card already and I didn't have any line of 7. All my grades in the card was line of 8 and 9 but guess what - Since almost all of my grade had gone down, I'll be saying bye-bye to all of my gadjects... *cRieS* It's so cruel! HEARTLESS! *cRieS aGaiN* Sometimes, I can't help but hate my uncle! I mean, I did my best to obtain grades for the 2nd Quarter that aren't in line of 7 or failing grades, you know? And it was very, VERY hard! And he's still going to get all of my gadjects?! *siGh* I really hate this... Now, I have to start boosting up my grades to the best of my abilities once again.. I'm getting tired and I'm already restless as it is... My, my, my... Now, I wondering what will happen to my christmas vacation...

             Oh well, never mind that for a while... I still enjoyed my day yesterday even just a bit since my head was all plagued with my personal thoughts.

             Besides from getting my card, I also went with my friends; Jazz, Marionette and Sey along with Pope and Jaja, to an anime convention located near Thendesitas (Silver City). It was the "HATAW HANEP - The AMPED Edition" Anime Con... It was kinda okay but for me, it was boring actually... And I think that I only wasted my money in going there since I didn't really liked the con because of it boredomness. Anyways, I had my friends cosplay and here was it; Sey in Gothic-Lolita outfit, Jazz as Lightning of FFXIII, Marionette as Ai of Jigoku Shoujo and Jaja in just a simple silky kimono (She's not actually cosplaying since it was very simple). We came around 2:00 in the afternoon since almost all of them were late in coming to our meeting place which was in school. Pope arrived in school at 7:30 am, Jazz at 8:00, Sey at around 9:00, Me at around 9:30 to 10:00 and Jamie at 11:30 and we were suppose to left school around 11:00.. We left school at around 1:00 then we dropped off in SM Megamall to take Jaja with us... Well, I think that's it so far... Hmmm.... Yep, that's how we had our H3 Convention...

             Around 3:30, Jaja and I left the said convention riding a cab/taxi. I had Jaja dropped off her house which was near SM Megamall and I told the taxi driver to take me to UP, Bahay ng Alumni, where another convention called "Komikon" was being held. I arrived their at around 5:00 and I went straight inside. You know, It was much more lively there and IT WAS NOT BORING! My gosh! It was much more enjoyable their actually... *siGh* I should have gone straight there rather than wasting my money in riding taxi... Damnit!

             So, yeah! I went inside and looked for my friend - Power-J, whom I liked torturing sooo much.. How? Well, HE's a 'narusaku' fan and I'm a 'sasusaku' fan, right? So, during comissions, I pay him to draw me 'Sasusaku' drawings in which he hates me for that... LoL~  He didn't really said that he hates me but I know for sure that he does... Heheheh.... What can I say? I love torturing people sometimes, especially if we don't have something in common for a matter... So, I asked him to draw me 3 'Sasusaku' drawings - Code Geass (Lelouch and C.C.) Version... I even met a couple of new artists and all of them were SO COOOLL!  While Power-J was drawing, I roamed around and bought some stuff like rubix cube, keychains, and pins...

             Around quarter to 6, I payed and got the drawings and went home... And that's how I spent my day yesterday... For today, well, I just slept almost the whole day.. LoL~ Well, bye-bye for now! Ja ne!

               Bad day or good... I don't know... My PSP still isn't with me, thanks to my stupid lockermate, G. And he told me a while ago that our principal said that G can get it on card distribution day which is a bit..well..., you know... *siGh* I really want to cry now..

But then, something good happened, surprisingly and it was during our Home Economics in where we had baked "Cheese Cupcakes".

               So as usual, we started on checking of attendance and aprons. And then we prepared the ingredients needed and we proceeded to the actual baking... While in the middle of it, we were talking about our classmate, Gen, who was rumored to use her urine in washing her face for a reason that she believes that urine kills the germs in pimples. And so, they let her come to us and talk to her about the stuff. Well, it was more like a debate after a few minute.. LoL~ Gen VS. Mr. Premocoi and Onii-chan... It was actually funny since PBfriend was also listening...

               A little while later, while I was already fixing the cupcakes that we have finished baking (I was setting it on the tray already), our groupmate called me by Gen's name in which I reacted violently and in which Mr. Premocoi laughed. Of course, my reaction was to whack him a little in the head and he was like "What the hell?! What's wrong with you?!" and so on... Then Onii-chan butted in and told Mr. Premocoi that "Girls are unpredicatble"... What made me a bit angry was Mr. Premocoi commented that praise with "What? Huh? Is she a girl?"  Guess what I did? I walked out and never came back to our group table...

               When almost everyone was going out already, I was just seated beside our teacher having this so-called gloomy aura and Mr. Premocoi and PBfriend was already going home. But then, our teacher noticed at how I looked at him and told him that I was angry at him. So, he said sorry, but I just kept quiet. He said sorry several more time but I didn't react... Yet, actually, I was close to laughing since the expression on his face while he was saying sorry - it was SO funny... LoL~

               At dismissal, when I bumped into him at the front gate of our school, while  I was with the banshee (our president) and one of her loyal servants along with dannicj, and sher; he said sorry (again) several times and the banshee and her loyal servant were like "hug her!" or "k*** her!"  *pUkeS* Bleh! I walked out on that... But, you know, it actually had me smirking or more like snickering while walking away... Hahahah! LoL~

So, that's it for now yet, I still hope and pray that I can have my PSP again and I also hope and pray that I will have no line of 7 in my card for the 2nd Quarter... T_T

Watashi Ganbarre! Soushte, ja matta ne-

              MY GOSH! I don't know what to do anymore... Things was already okay during 'Computer' time but then our principal came and called for my lockermate; G... And guess what, it was because of my PSP!  *sNiff* And now, I think I'm gonna die early especially if my uncle finds out... Not to mention, our card distribution is on Saturday!

What if I got a grade of line of seven?! I'm so dead! Without that PSP, I'll have to give up my mp3, my own DVD and TV, and my Computer! And I won't be able to go to the 2 anime conves on Saturday!  0_0  *cRies* Waaahhhh~ WHAT THE HELL SHOULD I DO?!

              I'm having too many problems with myself as it is... What's happening to me? What's happening to me with my friends? And other more stuff... And now even in school; my PSP, my other friends, and my studies... I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE! It's too much pressure already!

Can I just die now?!

              I'm really depress as it is... And all these things are happening to me?! *sNiFF* *sNiFF* Waahhhh~  My heads gonna explode already! *cRies* I just hope and pray that our principal will give us back the PSP even just by Friday... T_T  I'm so gonna die if not! *cRies moRe*

WAAAAHAHAHAAHHHAAA~

          Okay, well... Never mind about that.. LoL~

          So, now, I'm back (alive and still kicking some asses in school) and might be updating more frequently this time since I have my computer all to myself as well as the files that I have saved there...

          Anyways, I think I should tell "what's up" on my side already...

          2 months was so freaking damn tired especially since my time was divided into studies, anime, my mom, and my baby cousin (who is not that much of a baby since she's two years old and she can talk a bit already and you can ask her to do simple stuff like putting the shoes in the shoecase). Really tired! But of course, I still enjoyed it, you know? Heheheh...

          MOM: She was great since she allowed me in my gimmicks with friends and anime stuff but she's kinda scary when she switchs into "Tsunade" mode (if you know what I mean). Just a month ago, we had a fight and I ended up having black marks in my arms and I also ended up with several scars in it, too... But nevertheless, I still love her but I'm not just good at showing it since I'm really not that close to her...

          SCHOOL: Now this is what I call "CHAOS TIME!" Why? For freaking sake, too many projects, assignments, and seatworks all at the same time! Not to mention, classroom and year level competitions are pressuring each and everyone of us already... T_T Isn't our school a bit sadistic in doing these activites all at the same time? Yet, of course, since all students in our school are crazy; only a few take it REAL seriously and many takes it just like "go with the flow". I take it seriously though but the problem is that - "I'M INCHARGE OF THE PROPS AND SOUND EFFECTS AGAIN!" And you know what?! Those parts are the hardest part since you need to use you brain so that everything will go in place.... Tch! That's why I don't like being the classroom's "hoy! patulong" etc. I mean, I can't just turn them down, right? MY grades are also in it... *siGh* Never mind...

          So, where was I? I think that's only it so far since I don't remember that much either... BTW, before I go, I might be changing my LJ account... take the note "MIGHT", okay? I'm still thinking about it... This account brings out to much memories, you know? As well as my ff.net account and deviantart account... Don't ask about it, okay? It's really hard.. Pretending, I mean...

          Well, sore ja! Matashta~

             Our Day for the celebration for the "Buwan ng Wika" is nearing its start... Everyone is already cramming designing bulletin boards, stages, venues; practicing intermission numbers and other more stuff... But of course, it was not like that all day.

             It was really fun today especially when we started the subjects after lunch, particularly Health. Wait... *thiNks* No, it was the happy yet very... ummm... I don't really know... Our topic was about "Reproductive Health" and for the first time in the history of our section, everysingle student was actually quiet and was paying attention to the teacher's discussion. As for me, I was the one incharge of the powerpoint... During the discussion, everyone was like "wwooohhh~" or like "Yeessss! *lauGhs*" and something else like that... Well, they were like that while I was just thinking of something else since I'm not really into the topic. When the lesson was nearing its end, I kind of start doodling in the powerpoint using a felt tip pin available in the program and my classmates near were like do this to the picture or draw that etc. Of course, I just did what they told me and we ended up snickering while the teacher was teaching us.

* We were not in the classroom by the way. We were in the viewing room...

             After Health, the teacher told us about our graded reporting and our Korean student, specifically Mr. Premocoi, didn't understand it and so when our teacher had us pass to return to the classroom, he was at the end of the line to ask our teacher questions.

* I was with our teacher at that time so in other words, I was also at the end of the line, not only with our teacher and Mr. Premocoi but with also PBfriend and one of my female classmates.. T_T ... I'll name our health teacher; Miss NeMa, and that female classmate of mine; MJ...

             When our teacher had explained everything to Mr. Premocoi, they stopped talking and walked at the back so Me, Miss NeMa and MJ were walking infront of them. And then, MJ asked a question which I couldn't relate to so I paid attention to what Miss NeMa and MJ conversation.

* It was... I think, about sex and stuff.

             In the middle of the conversation, when Miss NeMa had talked about women's menstration period and stuff, Mr. Premocoi suddenly butted in saying; "Huh? Isn't any girl's menstration is about 28-35 days?." And so Miss NeMa started saying; "WOw! You know a lot, ha!" And thus we started laughing non-stop while talking about it. When we have reached the third year building, we were still laughing, even we were climbing up the stairs... LoL!

             Well, I think that all since that's the only thing I really like today that happened and I guess you already know why... So, Sore Ja!

          Arrrgghhh~ I am starting to hate Mr. Premocoi already! Stupid Korean Guy! How come I'm the only one who he always teases in the class? Why won't he tease the other people, specifically other girls, in the classroom? I'm really starting to hate him already! *fRustRateD* *siGh* I'll tell you more about what he did later but for now, I'm going to tell you what happened in the other subjects before Music and Filipino

* Music and Filipino are the subjects in where he had teased me...

So here's the happenings:

BEFORE CLASSES

           I don't know why but I think God really is there for us even though what we need is what we really don't need. Why? When I was still at my house this morning, I kept thinking when will I be the 1st to come in the classroom before Mr. Premocoi?
           When I got to school, I went straight to the classroom and guess what? Mr. Premocoi wasn't there... I arrived at 6: 20... and he arrived at exactly 6:35... Wow! God sure does answer my prayers even though I was just thinking of it...


HOMEROOM

          Two of our classmates was asked to go to the Gym for the Nutriquiz semifinals. As for the rest of the class, well... we just laughed all period... of course, you know our adviser, he takes notice of everything and comments on it especially when two of our classmates were late. One of them were asked to sing and guess what he sang? ABC... LoL! The whole class (except for me and for some) joined him in the singing...


RELIGION

         That's it! Starting from now on, I'm not gonna join this subject in any of my entries unless I enjoyed it! This subject is totally boring this year!


GEOMETRY

         Nothing special... Just a lecture about perimeter and circumference...


CHEMISTRY

          Our teacher in Chemistry was absent so all we did was her given seatwork which was given to us by our Chemistry supervisor, my last year's adviser's co-adviser, our beloved teacher in Science last year 2007-2008.


MUSIC AND ARTS

           Okay, here goes one of the subjects that made me so pissed off at Mr. Premocoi. What happened? First, I was just talking to them and I was reading their palms; love life, money, years left to live etc.

* I know Palm Reading, started studying it 6th grade. By the way, we didn't have a lecture in this subject since our teacher was absent so it was chaos inside the classroom and everyone was not in their proper seats. Mr. Premocoi was beside my chair with his bestfriend which I will call, from now on as PBfriend.

           And they were like making fun of it but I was still okay with it since I am, after all, a beginner in that field. Later on, I got one of my drawings and have some classmates sign it including Mr. Premocoi and his buddies whom he was talking at that time. A little while later, when I returned to my seat, I saw Mr. Premocoi and his buddies looking at my clear "without" MY permission. Of course I just got it and they were like; "No! We're just looking at it!" thus the tag of war with my clearbook started and I won since I owned it. That's the first reason... The second reason is when Filipino subject comes...


LITERATURE

          We just had to "draw" Shakespeare's face and put some details about him around it... It was our seatwork... Damnit! I didn't got to finish it... And we passed our notebooks - we will receive it tomorrow.


FILIPINO

           So, here's the start of the second reason - When we have changed our seats, I suddenly needed to get my "red" ballpen for checking our test papers last meeting. When I was about to get it, Mr. Premocoi didn't lean off the chair instead he just stayed leaning on my chair, on my BAG! I still needed to push him off to get it then one of his seatmates at that time, commented something which I didn't like...

* I won't tell what he commented but it did made me snap at that time.

           So what I did was I hit him twice with our Filipino book and punched him twice also in the arm. Afterwards, I returned to my seat. Later on, we went down again to the red bricks to pratice our poem or "tula" so I asked Mr. Premocoi if he can hold my wallet again for the mean time. Well, he didn't open it but he did hold it by the keychain strap.

* The keychain strap was given by one of my bestfriends 2 years ago. The strength of that strap is already weak. It may break anytime. That's why I was so scared when I saw Mr. Premocoi holding it by the strap.

          I was like "Oh No~" and felt like crying.. I just let it out while acting like crazy infront of my groupmates. Dismissal came and he gave it to me already, I was carressing my wallet at that time... My gosh! Thank Lord that it didn't break. So all of us went home already and before that, I reminded Mr. Premocoi about my USB.

* I gave him my USB to put the Korean Mp3 songs there so I won't have to buy so many blank CDs. When did I gave it to him? 10 minutes after he just came to school from his house...

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          So here I am, typing all my frustrations about him ALL OUT! I think I change my mind, for the mean time, about me having a crush on Mr. Premocoi... I'll need to think about it... Well, gotta go! Ja ne! Oyasuminasai!