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YESTERDAY...

... was my damn birthday. It was rather sad but some parts of yesterday was also happy.

I started my day with an early wake-up call from my alarm clock. I needed to get to school early because my Onii-chan and I had a bet that whoever gets there last will have a punishment. And guess who won? ME! Hehehe... So, when he arrived, I was infront of the lobby waiting for him and when he saw me, I kept jumping up and down as if saying "HAH! I BEAT YOU, YOU LOSER! *iNseRt eviL lauGh*", and he just messed up my hair by ruffling it and left because of his duty as a core commander in our CAT (his punishment is to buy me free lunch twice this week and for him to ask his crush for a dance when our prom/bequethal already here). And then after a few minutes, the flag ceremony started.

After the flag ceremony, we returned to our respective classes, and met our own classmates. It was fun in our class! But there were much more boys than girls. T.T  It was rather annoying since most of them were so noisy, but hell, I was also along with my other classmates who were also my classmates last year. First part of the day ended up so quickly actually. When lunch came, my friends  (Russ, Char, and Zime) and I waited for Onii-chan in the benches infront of our classrooms. During lunch, we ate in the Jurgen's Hall. It was pretty fun! We were talking about random stuff and there was one part in where me and Onii-chan remembered the anime "Sukisyo". He was like "SH**!", because he had watched the half of the first episode and was like, "Is that a guy?!". LoL~

After eating, we went to the second floor of the canteen and stayed there for a while. ^_^

TODAY...

... the only thing that happened that I think was good was when I was able to talk to my friend, Elie, who was my classmate last year (she's Onii-chan's classmate). We talked of anime while reading an issue of Otakuzine Mag (as always) along with Sai and Dolli while I was eating Skyflakes and Iced Tea. After a few minutes, Onii-chan appeared out of nowhere. I thought it was someone else but then when I was about to drink my last bit of Iced Tea, I realized it. And then Elie said, "Hey! Let me borrow the other two that you brought!", so I agreed. Then you'll be laughing at what I did next... Before going back to my classroom to get the 2 other issues, I had Onii-chan hold my empty cup and empty plastic of Skyflakes, and he was surprised. Then I suddenly ordered hime, "You throw it..." and ran back to my classroom... LoL~

          Exams are finished and I still can't relax. I'm irritated because I don't know what to do here at home. My DVD Player's remote isn't working, and my gadgets are still with my lovable uncle's house, which I don't know when I will get. *siGh* But, nevertheless, this last examination this year was my most memorable one...  ^.^

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... 1st day of "examinations" in school ...

          I came really early for school, while drinking Coca-cola to keep me going, since my Onii-chan's crush, "Megumi", wanted me to review some several topic, especifically Geometry, and also to get a temporary ID since I lost my ID but I didn't get one in a time of 6:10 since the principal's secretary wasn't there yet. So, I returned to the classroom.

* Our test at that day was Filipino, Geometry and World History.

           Upon arriving from the prinicipal's office, Megumi had me teach here some topics in Geometry which she cannot understand along with her bestfriend from the Star Section, Czar. A little while later, Onii-chan came and my, my, my... He looked like he was rape by a million gay guys. I went to him and greeted him. Then, we went both to the principal's office, along with Zime (our classmate) only to see his brother watching over the office since the secretary wasn't there yet.

           I was a little surprised when Onii-chan lied down on the couch. His brother was like: "Hah! That's what you get for sleeping 2:00 in the morning just to review!" And I was like: *jAwdRopPeD* "You slept 2:00 in the morning?! Are you trying to kill yourself?!" and so the chaotic conversation started with that. At that time, he told us that he read chapter 51-64 of the Noli Me Tangere and memorized some things for World History which was the reason that he slept at 2:00 in the morning and which was also the reason why he was currently drinking one Gatorade bottle of coffee. Oh well.. I couldn't blame him. The school dismissed as at 3:30 in the afternoon and then the next day was the exams... *siGh* Not to mention, having Geometry for the first day of exams isn't really funny at all.

           At exactly 6:42, the principal's secretary, Ms. Liz, came and so, we got our temporary IDs just in time for the flag ceremony. When the flag ceremony started, the students were very funny to look at since they kept on glancing at their feet were their reviewers were placed. Some used the tip of their shoes to move the page to the next. And guess what? I was also one of them... So, after the flag ceremony, all students got back to their classrooms and had a 30minutes review time and started the exams.

           First off was World History which wasn't all that bad... for others that is, and not for me. During the examinations, Megumi was right by my left and one of our classmates (who knows how to play drums and is a very funny person), Terrence, was in my right. Both of them was getting answers for the exams from me, and MAN! It was so damn hard! Luckily, our adviser didn't caught us. It was also the same for the other subject examinations. It was hard, VERY HARD! Second came Filipino which was I thought was going to be hard since I didn't review at all and my notes for Noli was stolen. But, stock-memory came in-handy. Last for that day was Geometry and it was still the same situation, except that I didn't got to finish it because of our adviser counting time like: "2 more minutes", "1 minute and 50 seconds" and so on... *siGh*

           And so, after the 1st day of exams, I decided to go home early after I have given the Noli Me Tangere notebooks to Ms. V along with Onii-chan (again). When I got home, I didn't start reviewing. I don't know why but usually, I do review as soon as I got home. But it was kinda weird that I was lazying around and just listening to my mp3, making excuses to watch TV. And so, I started reviewing around 5:00 in the afternoon and slept at around 11:30 in the evening.

... 2nd day of "examinations" in school ...

           Just like the first day, I came early, now drinking and has one bottle of hot 3 packed-coffee, to teach Megumi again. And this time, it was Chemistry. But I didn't really taught her since she borrowed my notebook to complete her requirements. So, since I didn't have anything to do, I reviewed for a while but then I stopped and remembered that again, I need to go to the principal's office to get a temporary ID.

           Later on, after several minutes, many more students came coming and the bell rang, signalling the start of the 2nd day of examinations. First two exams before the break were Journalism and Literature, which I found a bit easy and hard at the same time. Easy because I know some of it. Hard because I didn't really review anything especially on Journalism and not to mention, Megumi and Terrence kept on nagging me to give them answers.

           Oh well... Break time was the most joyful time that day especially since I was on hyper-"kilig" mode. Okay, so, I brought one bottle of coffee to school, remember? During the morning breeze, Megumi asked me to let her drink a cup of coffee which I agreed to. Later on, on the morning too, I accompanied Onii-chan to the principal's office and I had him taste my coffee. It's just that, I know everyside of my cup and how it differs on all sides and angles and where my Onii-chan had drink when I had him taste my coffee is the exact part where Megumi had drank too... Take note! I did drink but it's on a different side and I haven't cleaned my cup yet. So, what does that mean?  ^_^ IDK! which stands for In.direct.kiss..! LoL~ So, I kept teasing him about it... And he was like going to blow up already! It was so fun that I didn't got a chance to review for Chemistry! And then, while he was reviewing, I kept on pointing my fingers upwards on his head which made him look like a "torro", and my classmate, Apple, was laughing at it. When Onii-chan noticed it, he won't stop pestering me with attempted tickling and strangling! *laUghs haRdeR* And so, I kept on annoying him until our adviser came for the last 2 exams. LoL! He didn't got a chance to review...

           So, the last 2 exams were Religion and Chemistry. Religion was pretty easy even though I didn't review or read anything about our lessons at all. As for Chemistry, almost all of us got angry since before the exams, our teacher said there won't be solving problems BUT THERE WAS! T.T My gosh! Luckily, I remembered some, especially the ZAPEN Problem Solving and Balancing. But what I hated was the pH and pOH! Damn it! *caLmS dowN* About 30 minutes before dismissal, our class had a little bonding time. The ones who started it was ME, Terrence, Megumi, Sai (one of my anime fan friends), and Terrence' friend: Joed. We were like cheering some names but it really is an insult. It was fun especially when almost the whole class was joining in already. *lauGhS* There was "Stick-O", "Kulot-Salot" or simply "Kulot", "Gumogda", "isda", "sped", "baboy" and so on... It was really fun! But my hands hurt, you know! With all those clapping beat.... ^.^ And so, dismissal time, everystudent in our school was celebrating and did what they wanted to do...

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          So, yeah... After the exams, all of us had a 2 rest days, specifically Sunday and Monday. It was a bit boring, actually. I got nothing to do here at home. But it was kinda fun since I got to text some stupid classmate (my Onii-chan to be exact) and play 20 questions, tease him about his crush and so on...

THE END OF A DREAM

Blank as always, I thought...

Oh! But how wrong I was...

I started to float but soon found myself in a wide field of greens,

Full of different kinds of plants with flowers,

Surrounded above by the vast and ever beautiful sky.

Without noticing, I found myself lying on the grass.

The feeling of serenity engulfing my whole self...

It was so peaceful, and quiet that I almost didn't notice his presence.

We were just there... right beside each other.

No voice were heard, no words were spoken...

Not any trace of movement was to be felt...

But then, he reached out to me, only to move my head on his shoulder.

The way he caresses my forehead, lulled me to sleep...

I told myself not to close my eyes, but slowly - my eyes betrayed me.

As I fell to eternal slumber;

I heard him said, "You know-

"WAKE UP ALREADY!"

My sister had poured cold water on me,

And I woke up only to see reality infront of me...

"You're gonna be late for school, so get ready! AND FAST!", she said while closing the door.

Darn it! It was SO close!

What a bad timing - I was already dreaming of him, and my sister woke me up.

"It was already a good dream...”, I started.

"But then, it won't come true right? I'm just a geek, after all", I finished as I wore my glasses...

Sigh... I hope this won't be the end of my dream.

             This day can be considered as one of the sadess and weirdest yet happy day of my life...

             SADESS. Remember when I told you yesterday about what I did to my Oniichan? I didn't talk to him all day and everyone else were like ignoring me, too, so I was a loner for the rest of the day. I was all alone; doing my homework, seatwork, quizzes, going to different places in school alone and other more stuff. And I was like angry or "mataray" in tagalog, wherein my classmates were affected by it since I talked to them with an angry tone either when they ask something or when they did something wrong which is none of my business. *siGh* One time, Oniichan tried to talk to me since Elie told him something (which I never got to figure out). But guess what? I ignored him... Why? I was still guilty for what I did to him... the wound... and I'm get teary-eyed whenever I see the wound on his face. *sNiff* But you know what, I really wanted to talk to him at that time but half of me said otherwise.

             WEIRDEST. HAPPY. This dismissal, I got so angry at my classmates for a reason and because of it, I cleaned the whole classroom which was very, very dirty, courtesy of my classmates. After that, I looked for my Filipino teacher, Ms. V to ask her something but it everything ended into a long conversation/"kwentuhan" with matching eating of fishballs, french fries, and red tea. There was time which was really weird...

             (Tagalog Conversation)
Ms. V: Bakit nga pala di mo kasama si Kuya mo kanina?
ME: Eh, kasi may nangyari po eh.
Ms. V: Alam mo, ang bait niya. Buti naging kaibigan mo siya...
ME: Oo, nga po eh..
Ms. V: Bat di ka nga pala nag-CAT?
ME: Wala po akong time eh.
Ms. V: Sayang! Mas okay sana kung kasama mo si Kuya mo. Tsaka okay ka sana maging officer. Si Kuya mo ang commandante tapos ikaw ang second-in-command.
ME: Eh, walang time po kasi eh. Gusto ko rin po sanang maging CAT officer.
  * A few minutes later...
Ms. V: Pero alam mo, di ako magtataka kung maging kayo sa huli. Gawin mo kong ninang ah..
ME: Hala! Wala namang ganyanan, miss...
Ms. V: Ah basta.. Gawin mo kong ninang...

0_0 My Gosh! I was really shock! And even until I got home, I still couldn't absorb what Ms. V told me... Until now, I still couldn't believe that of all teachers, it was Ms. V who said it... OF ALL TEACHERS who are close to me... *siGh* Has the world really gone mad?!

WAAAAHHHH!

I want to cry...

*sNiff* I hurted my Onii-chan! *cRieS*

The day was already okay until the last subject, but what I did in dismissal time to Onii-chan really made me guilty and sad...

We were just joking around and then I smacked him with my envelope. I didn't notice that my teddy bear keychain hit him, leaving a wound on his face, almost near the eyes.... T_T waAaaAhhHhh~ I'm so sad... *sNiff* *sNiff* Gosh, I don't know what to do. I already told him I was sorry, which he accepted, but I still can't get over the fact that I wounded him... *sNiff* *sNiff* What the hell should I do...???