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THE END OF A DREAM

Blank as always, I thought...

Oh! But how wrong I was...

I started to float but soon found myself in a wide field of greens,

Full of different kinds of plants with flowers,

Surrounded above by the vast and ever beautiful sky.

Without noticing, I found myself lying on the grass.

The feeling of serenity engulfing my whole self...

It was so peaceful, and quiet that I almost didn't notice his presence.

We were just there... right beside each other.

No voice were heard, no words were spoken...

Not any trace of movement was to be felt...

But then, he reached out to me, only to move my head on his shoulder.

The way he caresses my forehead, lulled me to sleep...

I told myself not to close my eyes, but slowly - my eyes betrayed me.

As I fell to eternal slumber;

I heard him said, "You know-

"WAKE UP ALREADY!"

My sister had poured cold water on me,

And I woke up only to see reality infront of me...

"You're gonna be late for school, so get ready! AND FAST!", she said while closing the door.

Darn it! It was SO close!

What a bad timing - I was already dreaming of him, and my sister woke me up.

"It was already a good dream...”, I started.

"But then, it won't come true right? I'm just a geek, after all", I finished as I wore my glasses...

Sigh... I hope this won't be the end of my dream.

             This day can be considered as one of the sadess and weirdest yet happy day of my life...

             SADESS. Remember when I told you yesterday about what I did to my Oniichan? I didn't talk to him all day and everyone else were like ignoring me, too, so I was a loner for the rest of the day. I was all alone; doing my homework, seatwork, quizzes, going to different places in school alone and other more stuff. And I was like angry or "mataray" in tagalog, wherein my classmates were affected by it since I talked to them with an angry tone either when they ask something or when they did something wrong which is none of my business. *siGh* One time, Oniichan tried to talk to me since Elie told him something (which I never got to figure out). But guess what? I ignored him... Why? I was still guilty for what I did to him... the wound... and I'm get teary-eyed whenever I see the wound on his face. *sNiff* But you know what, I really wanted to talk to him at that time but half of me said otherwise.

             WEIRDEST. HAPPY. This dismissal, I got so angry at my classmates for a reason and because of it, I cleaned the whole classroom which was very, very dirty, courtesy of my classmates. After that, I looked for my Filipino teacher, Ms. V to ask her something but it everything ended into a long conversation/"kwentuhan" with matching eating of fishballs, french fries, and red tea. There was time which was really weird...

             (Tagalog Conversation)
Ms. V: Bakit nga pala di mo kasama si Kuya mo kanina?
ME: Eh, kasi may nangyari po eh.
Ms. V: Alam mo, ang bait niya. Buti naging kaibigan mo siya...
ME: Oo, nga po eh..
Ms. V: Bat di ka nga pala nag-CAT?
ME: Wala po akong time eh.
Ms. V: Sayang! Mas okay sana kung kasama mo si Kuya mo. Tsaka okay ka sana maging officer. Si Kuya mo ang commandante tapos ikaw ang second-in-command.
ME: Eh, walang time po kasi eh. Gusto ko rin po sanang maging CAT officer.
  * A few minutes later...
Ms. V: Pero alam mo, di ako magtataka kung maging kayo sa huli. Gawin mo kong ninang ah..
ME: Hala! Wala namang ganyanan, miss...
Ms. V: Ah basta.. Gawin mo kong ninang...

0_0 My Gosh! I was really shock! And even until I got home, I still couldn't absorb what Ms. V told me... Until now, I still couldn't believe that of all teachers, it was Ms. V who said it... OF ALL TEACHERS who are close to me... *siGh* Has the world really gone mad?!

WAAAAHHHH!

I want to cry...

*sNiff* I hurted my Onii-chan! *cRieS*

The day was already okay until the last subject, but what I did in dismissal time to Onii-chan really made me guilty and sad...

We were just joking around and then I smacked him with my envelope. I didn't notice that my teddy bear keychain hit him, leaving a wound on his face, almost near the eyes.... T_T waAaaAhhHhh~ I'm so sad... *sNiff* *sNiff* Gosh, I don't know what to do. I already told him I was sorry, which he accepted, but I still can't get over the fact that I wounded him... *sNiff* *sNiff* What the hell should I do...???